We all know that saying about good intentions. I’ve ended up in my own personal hell. I’ve let myself down and failed not just me, but my family as well. Why? You may ask. Well it’s because I started this journey to a better me with all of the best intentions. I didn’t only want to change my lifestyle, I needed to. So what have I done? Pretty much nothing. Food plan’s gone out the window, exercise is just a joke. While depression wise I feel fanfuckingtastic, best I’ve felt in years – everything else, not so much. So what am I going to do about it? Kick myself in the arse a few times, put on my big girl panties, drink a cup of concrete and harden the fuck up!
We slip. It’s a fact of life. I’m not playing the blame game here though – it’s my fault. I need to hold myself accountable. So I’m going to. I want to be healthy so bad. I have to do it. So for the rest of the week, it’s re-asses my goals and back into re-focusing on my journey.
Here we go!
Sooooooo just putting it out there for the world to see. I’m kinda fat. You know overweight; pudgy; rotund; carrying a spare tire; oh and I have a bit of a muffin top. I could stand to lose about 35kgs. That puts my weight at about 100kgs give or take, well give, a few hundred grams. I don’t just need to lose weight, I need to change how I look at life; food; and myself. I’m a bit of a negative Nelly when it comes to what I think about me. I’m getting there though, so lets just call me a “work in progress”
Monday is the day for it all. Monday I start on the Michelle Bridges 12 week body transformation. This isn’t just about exercise. It’s about knowing how to eat, how to change the way you think about food and exercise and more importantly how you approach these things and your own self worth. She really sets you up to change. She gives you all the tools to succeed, but she doesn’t hold your hand. You are responsible for being honest and upfront with yourself. Hell, it’s you that you’re letting down if you cheat on your diet.
So one of the things I plan on doing over the 12 weeks is finding something good in everyday. Some days may be big, some days may be small but there’s always good in every day. This is about being healthy – mind; body; and soul.